片名 ： 风雨哈佛路 Title: Homeless to Harvard
我非常爱我的妈妈 I loved my mother so much
她吸毒 She was a drug addict
也酗酒 She was an alcoholic
且基本失明 She was legally blind
她还患有精神分裂 She was a schizophrenic
但是我决不会忘记她爱我 but I never forgot that she loved me
即使她已经死了 even if she did it
一直如此 all the time
丽莎，把钱给我！ 是我的！ Lisa, give me the money! It's mine!
是我的！上帝啊！那是我的！ God, it's mine!
[父] 谁是圣.丹诺森 [Father] Who's Saint Donalson.
[电视]谁是圣.丹诺森 [TV] Who's Saint Donalson.
你这家伙 You freak
[父] 什么是 Ameba？ [Father] what is Ameba？
在哪? Where is it?
把它给我 Give it to me!
[父]什么是epidermis? [Father] What is epidermis.
[电视]什么是epidermis... 正确！ [TV] What is the epidermis. Correct!
快给我！ Give it to me！
快放手 妈 Let go, mom!
我分给你100块！ I gave a hudred to you！
别跑 我分给你100块！你们一个人一百块！ Just come, I gave 100 to you！to one of you！
我们还要生活呢！ We're forced to live on!
每个月都是这样，这...该死的东西 Every month! It is ...It's...It's the same damn thing!
[父]什么是genus？ [Father] What is genus.
你把它们全拿去吸毒了 我们就得挨饿了 You can put it in your arms, so we can starve!
是我的！ It's mine!
我根本没有拿！ 把它给我！ I didn't take it! Give it to me!
[父] 什么是 Denmark？ [Father] What is Denmark.
给我！ 是我的！ Give it to me! It's mine!
是我的！ It's mine!
我们饿了！ We're hungry.
我不能给你！我们需要食物！妈！ I can't ! We need food, mom!
你们为我做过什么？ 我给了你们生命！ What did you ever do for me, huh?! I gave you life!
你想让我当妓女吗 让我去卖身吗？ Tell me go out to the street and sell myself for it? huh?
你想让我那么做吗？我知道我会的 Do you want me to do it? I know I do it sometimes, right?
[父]别这样 基尼 别这么说 你当然不必这么做了！ [Father] Come on, jinny, what are you saying? She doesn't need to do that！
天哪！ Oh, My God！
我需要它！ I need it.
[父]什么是Medina? [Father] What is Medina.
[父]谁是Gallia Champion [Father] Who's Guerra Champion.
[旁白]我需要那个微笑 哦 上帝 我是多么需要那个微笑啊！ [monologue] I wanted that smile. Oh, god! I wanted that smile so much!
我很可怜 不是吗？ I was pathetic, wasn't I?
不要拿走它 妈咪！ Don't take the aqueduct! Mummy!
爸！ Daddy！
[父]谁是Carl Deniel [Father] Who is Carl Deniel
她走到有沟渠边上了 She taking the aqueduct!
那又怎么样？ What the hell difference does it make？
她会被抢劫！ She'll get mugged！
谁在乎呢！ Who cares!
爸 快走 我们得跟着！不然她摔倒会被抢劫。-真是个大麻烦 Dad, we'll cop her, if we can't she'll get mugged! Always a big production!
[父]谁是Noel Coward [Father] Who's Noel Coward
你看他们把灯修好了 See they fixed the light for a change.
过不久就又被打破了 not easy to break them again
不不不 她没事 你看水到这停止了 No, No, No. She's ok, see the water runs downhill.
那儿没什么水 There's no water
不不不 你不知道沟渠是什么吗？沟渠是用来给纽约运水的 No, No. Don't you know what aqueduck is? The aqueduct carried water to New York City
过去一百多年都是这样 后来关闭了 但是现在这鬼水带着你妈妈走 for like over a hundred years they did that. And they close it down, but now the ghost water right? He carried your mother along.
[旁白]我父亲 [monologue] My father
[旁白]你可以坐下来跟我父亲聊天 [monologue] You could sit down on a couch and talk to my father.
[旁白]但你总是不会跟他谈太久 [monologue] you just can't talk to him for long.
嘿，基尼 Hey, Jean !
[旁白]他懂很多东西 答案随口即出 他是个天才 每次回答都是正确的 [monologue] He knew so much. He got all the answers right on JEOPERDY. He was a genius, every answer, every time.
[旁白]就是那样 [monologue] That's the thing.
[旁白]你的父母是你的上帝 [monologue] Your parends are your Gods.
[旁白]就象全世界所有的普通父母一样 [monologue] I look to them as an example of what I should find everywhere on the world
[旁白]他们 很少关心我的需要 [monologue] They paid so little attention to my needs
[旁白]但是却让我觉的他们的需要是如此强烈 以至于当他们不关心我时都没让我感到伤害或者愤怒 [monologue] but then I felt that their needs were so powerful that ... It didn't make me feel hurt or angry that they didn't look into me.
[旁白]因为我觉得能够承受 可能人类就是这样的 [monologue] because I felt ok. This just must to be the human condition to be so.
[旁白]然后发生了些事 [monologue] and then the world came in.
你抢走了我的丈夫 你这个小混蛋 我要杀了你 You took my husband, you little busterd, I'll kill you.
不 妈咪 No mummy
我不是你妈妈 我帮了你 真不该生下你 I'm not your mother. I did your favour. I shouldn't have trail on you!
赶快把这里清理了 丽丝 他们见了会把我们也带走的 help me clean up this Liz. They see this they're gonna take us, too.
不！ 不！ 不！这是我家。 NO! NO! NO! It's my house.
别带我走！不！走开！不！别带我走！不！ Don't take me！get out! NO！Don't take！
别激动！ No fasten !
窗户怎么了？ What happened to the window?
她把窗给扔了 She threw the ****.
我要把你们烧成灰 such you on fire take me ...
别这样 基尼 come on jean
为什么不接受治疗呢？ 女士！ Why don't take a medication? good girl！
她只是其它事物接受太多了... She takes it! She just takes too many other things on top of it...
好了 一切都好了... OK OK
真是够乱的！ This place is a mess！
这是怎么回事？ What happened here？
没什么 I fell down.
噢噢噢 基尼 把刀放下 Oh oh oh Jean put the knife down
好的 好的 OK OK
好吧 电话在哪里？ all right where's the phone?
我们没有电话！ we don't have one!
这女人真不像话 this woman doesn't fit
你说笑吧！ You're kidding
你们有选择的 把这里打扫干净 帮帮你妈妈 You girls have choice. clean this place up, help your mother.
那我爸爸呢？ How about my father？
别理她 她...她是个女权主义者 Ignore her. She's a ... She's a feminist.
I can take you any time I want. You keep skipping school. You keep living like the animals. [mother] Lizzy Lizzy Lizzy
我随时能把你们带走...你一直在逃学，住的跟狗窝似的 [母亲]丽萨 丽萨 丽丝
嘿 嘿 你去哪儿 你去哪儿 回来 回来 Hey Hey where are you going? come back here. come back.
你要生活在一个家庭里 你知道“疯房子”什么样吗？ 那儿的女孩 打你 拿走你所有的东西 You're gonna go to a home. Do you know what home is like? There are girls. They'll be to dult take everything you have.
你一点东西都不会有 你得刷厕所 你在家里不好好的就得去那 you can't have anything! you have to clean bathrooms. you'll work there if you don't work here.
后退 后退 back up! back up.
这不是看戏 去干你们自己的事吧 It's not a show! You got nothing better to do huh?
妈咪 Mummy?
[旁白]难道他们看不到吗? [monologue] Couldn't they see?
[旁白]谁都能看到... [monologue] Anyone could see.
[旁白]她承受着巨大的痛苦... [monologue] She was in so much pain.
[旁白]多明显的挣扎...就在那里...如果有人会看的话... [monologue] There were struggles so much on the surface so there if anyone cared to look
[旁白]并不是她不想成为一个好妈妈... 只是她再没有什么能给予的了... [monologue] It wasn't like she was running off from being a good mother to somebody else... She just didn't have any more to give.
噢，真难闻! Oh, somebody stinks!
谁啊? What is that?
[旁白]我在班里是个"有味道"的孩子 [monologue] I was always the smelly kid in class.
丽萨喜欢用水桶接水淋浴 爸爸嘲笑说她应该嫁个医生 因为她太讲究了 而我没有太多要求 所以 我身上有味道 [monologue] We *** on the bucket to shower, but daddy laughed at her doing, said she had to marry a doctor she has so many expectations. I didn't have any expectations. so therefore, I guess, I stunk.
[旁白]虱子让我奇痒 而且在我身上乱跳 我的老师告诉我别去挠它 [monologue] and I itched from *** and it burned between my legs. My teachers were always telling not to finch it.
[旁白]还有内衣? 我不知道该如何处理 我只知道穿烂为止 [monologue] and my underwear. I didn't know what to do about underwear. I just wore it until it fell apart.
[老师]好啦 孩子们 谢谢你们 休息结束 [Teacher] All right! people! thank you! rest is over.
[旁白]我的牙很疼 而且我很饿 [monologue] My teeth ached. I was hungry.
[老师]坐好 [teacher] settle! thank you!
[旁白]老师的话好像传不到我这里一样 那些话就好像掉到地上一样 [monologue] The teacher's words never seemed to reach me. Words just seemed... fall on the floor.
给我试卷，你没必要做... Hold me the test. There's no point that ...
不 我要做 NO, I'll take it.
[老师]...但是你一个月才来几次? 3次? [teacher] but you've been here what? for 3 times this month?
不 我要做 看起来没那么难 NO, I'll take it. It doesn't look that hard.
噢 丽丝 站住 Oh, Liz, stay here.
你身上真的有味道 知道吗? 你妈妈没告诉你... You do smell, you know? Doesn't your mother tell you that you gonna ...
不 不 是我的错 我只是忘了 NO NO It's my fault. I just forget.
好的 OK
那么，今天晚上你洗澡的时候 能把后边洗洗吗? Well, when you have shower tonight, you wanna, you wanna wash back here ?
嗯 我看到一些你的东西 Ah, I've been saving some things for you.
这个 there
还有这个 你是怎么做到的? 你都没来过学校 and here. How did you do that? You're never in school.
我读了很多书 I read a lot.
你都读什么了? Yeah? what do you read?
《百科全书》，楼上的女士伊娃 她在垃圾桶里找到它，全套…嗯，除了<鄂尔多斯>那部分 encyclopedia. The laddy upstairs, Eva, she find it in the Dumpster, the whole set ... well, except for the Erdos
如果你问我关于<鄂尔多斯> 我肯定什么都答不上来 我只是比较运气罢了 If you asked me about Erdos, I would have got it wrong. I was just lucky.
好吧 丽丝 你必须到学校来 Oh, Lizzy! You have to come to school.
好的 OK
不 我是认真的 你比你想象的要聪明 我只是不明白你为什么不上学? NO, I mean it. Look, it's ridiculous you're way too smart not to be here. I don't understand why don't you come?
我会来的 I will.
[旁白]我怎么能告诉她学校让我感到难过 [monologue] How could I tell her that school made me sad.
[旁白]我不知道怎么跟她说 我不知道怎么跟任何人说 [monologue] I didn't know how to talk to her. I didn't know how to talk to anyone.
[旁白]我的家庭不是那种能出正常人的地方 [monologue] My house wasn't a place you could come out of and be normal.
你必须每天都来 好吗? 如果你不来 我会给福利院打电话 这不是吓唬你 是承诺 We have to come every day. OK? If you don't, and I will call CHILD WELFARE.That's not a threat. It's a promise.
伊娃 看我拿的是什么? Eva, look what I've got.
100分? 100 !
是啊，多亏了你的百科全书 Yes, encyclopedia
很好 真是好成绩 你可不笨哦 Good, you gotta make good marks. You don't wanna be an idot.
你要继续努力 知道吗 你妈妈已经回来了 and you keep up now, you hear me? now your mother's back.
我妈回来了? My mother's back?
嗯 我们过了两个安静平淡的月份 不是吗? Well, we had a nice quiet couple of months, didn't we?
[旁白]我妈妈被带走的唯一好处就是她又回来了 她又是我的妈妈了 她做饭、打扫卫生 甚至尝试做个速记员 [monologue] The only good thing about my mother being taking away to the nut house was that when she came back she was my mum again. She cooked and she cleaned more than she even to be a court sonographer.
[旁白]对我而言 那是两个安静平淡的月份 之后毒品又回到家庭了 [monologue] for me, that was a good quiet couple of months before the drugs came back in.
妈咪 Mummy?
丽丝 Lizzy.
你还好吗? Are you ok?
我挺好的 I'm ok.
上帝啊 你长得真快 pumpkin, you look real good.
真高兴你又回来了!妈咪 glad you're home, mummy.
你觉得高兴吗? you're glad you're home?
嗯 医院也不是很糟糕 This hospital won't too bad.
那里树很多 有高墙 而且窗户上还有栏杆 It's too green, the walls. and there were bars on the windows.
对不起 医院就是这样 I'm sorry. you had to say that, you know.
但我真高兴你又回来了! but I'm glad you're home.
看! Look!
看 我得了100分 Look! I...I got 100!
不 不 100分是好的意思 100分是满分 NO NO. 100 is good. 100 is perfect.
你没得过100分吗? Didn't you ever get 100?
我没上过学 我出走的时候年龄很小 你千万不能离家出走 I ain't go to school. I ran away too young. Don't you ever run away from home.
我不会的 I won't
记住 我会一直在这里守护你的 Liz, I'll always be here for you.
我知道 妈咪 I know, mummy.
我一直都在这里 一直都在 I'll always be here. ALWAYS.
我知道 妈咪 I know, mummy.
我得病了 我得病了 I'm sick. I'm sick.
我得了艾滋病 Liz, I... I have AIDS.
不 不 No No
不 NO NO NO
孩子 不要怕 baby don't
他们说... 不用害怕 They say... don't be afraid.
他们说...我可能...我能一直活下去 知道吗? They say... I might... they say I could live forever, ok?
但我不能住在这里 我必须要回家了 but I can't live here. I gotta go home.
这就是你的家 This is home.
不，是爷爷的家 我想带你和丽莎过去 No, home to my pop's. I wanna take you and Lisa.
不 不 妈妈 你要待在这里 No No mom. you have to stay here.
我停不了吸毒 我也受不了你爸爸在身边 I can't stop the drugs. and I can't do it when your daddy around.
但是他会孤独的 but you'll be alone.
丽丝 这么说会没完的 丽萨已经过去了 把你的东西收拾好 咱们走 Liz, this is aready gonna over, just pack up your things and let's go.
不 你说爷爷经常打你 你说他强奸了你的姐姐 No you said pop's gonna beat you. you said he raped your sister.
因为现在不得不这样了 since what it has to be now.
不 留在这里 No, stay here
我办不到 I can't
留下吧 妈妈 stay mummy!
[旁白]一切都破灭了 我以为我留下就能阻止这些 [monologue] Everything was falling apart. I thought if I could stay I could stop it.
[旁白]我以为我留下的话 所有的一切或许都能和从前一样 [monologue] but if I stayed, everything would somehow stay the same.
把门打开 我知道你在里面呢 Just open the door. It's no use. We know you're in there.
你妈妈和姐姐呢? Where's your mother and sister?
她们离开了 They are gone.
你爸爸呢? Where's your father?
他去弄点吃的 马上就回来 He's gotta get some food, he'll be right back.
你的老师打电话来了 Your teacher called.
你还是没去学校 You're still not going to school.
你从来都没去过学校 You're never in school.
我们得采取些措施了 We gotta do something about this.
汪德小姐警告过你 我警告过你 所有关心你的工作人员(社会义工 义务帮助贫穷人民的人 译者注） Miss Wonder warned you, I warned you, every one year case workers warned you
这都很长时间了 This's been going out for years
我告诉过你把这里收拾干净 然后去上学 We all said clean up this place and go to school.
收拾干净 上学去 clean up and go to school
你都做不到 是不是？ You have done neither one of them, have you?
伊丽莎白（丽丝的全称 译者注） 是不是？ Elizabeth, have you?
不是 No
那我们该怎么办？ So what we gonna do?
我不知道 I don't know.
我知道 I do.
你要到儿童收容所 You're going into the system.
我要带走她 I'm taking her.
但...但是事情现在好转多了 爸爸每天都给我买土豆 but but things are better now. My daddy buys me big potatos everyday
你没有交房租 也没让她去上学 You're not paying the rent. You're not getting her to school.
我告诉过她去上学 我告诉过她 她有她自己的想法 她是个女权主义者 I tell her to go. I told you to go to school. She's gotta mind of her own. She's a feminist.
这可不是开玩笑的事 This is not a joking matter.
给她准备行李! Pack her suitcase.
现在! Now!
不 不 不 哦 [父亲]对不起... No No No [father] I'm sorry.
我会去学校 我会去上学 求你了 I'll go to school. Please!
这没用 我们需要一个负责任的人监护你 This isn't working. We need an adult who's responsible.
我爷爷会负责的 我爷爷会收留我的 我姐姐在那里 My grandpa's responsible. My grandpa'll take me. My sister's there.
你姐姐可是去上学的! Your sister goes to school.
我去上学 我去上学 求你了 I'll go to school, I'll go to school. Please!
别再胡闹了 Don't make a fass.
我会跟他谈谈 如果他收留你 你24小时之内就会出来的 I'll talk to him. and if he'll take you. You'll be out in 24 hours.
对不起 I'm sorry.
如果他不收留我呢？ and if he won't?
那你就有时间好好规划一下了以后的生活了 You'll have time to figure out how you wanna live your life.
[旁白]规划我的人生 人们真的这么做吗？ [monologue] Figure out my life. Do people really do that?
[旁白]当他们跌进一个黑色深坑里他们真的还会为这些事烦恼吗？ [monologue] Do they do that while they are falling down into a deep dark hole.
[旁白]门铃声 反锁声 就好像去看我妈妈 只是现在是我在精神病院里 [monologue] buzzed in, locked in. It was like visiting my mother. only I was in the crazy house now.
[旁白]我24小时内并没有出去 24天内也没有出去 没人收留我 我被遗弃了 [monologue] and I didn't get out in 24 hours, I didn't get out in 24 days. No one wanted me. They just left me there.
你为什么不去学校？ Why don't you go to school?
这是个很严肃的问题 That's the big problem we've got here.
为什么你不去? Why don't you go?
在我看来 你有纪律上的问题 From what I can see, you've got a discipline problem.
丽丝？ Liz？
嗨 爷爷 Hi, pops
我叫你妈妈 You get your mother.
基尼 出来 她来了 Jean, come out here. She's here.
我得去学校了 但我想先见见你 I'm leaving for school, but I wanna see you first.
谢谢 丽萨 Thanks, Lisa.
别搞砸了 我们过的还好 Don't screw this up. We're doing ok.
而且 不要期望太多 她快不行了 and don't expect too much. She's dying.
丽丝 Lizzy!
妈妈 mom
[旁白]当我回想我的生命时 这是我最喜欢回忆起的时刻 [monologue] When I think of my life. This is the time I like to think of.
[旁白]我回来了 我妈妈的精神愉悦 没有毒品 也不再有精神分裂 [monologue] When I got back. When mother's mind was clear. There was no cocaine. so her schizophrenic seemed about to working.
[旁白]我们去咖啡馆 坐下闲聊 还有吃汉堡 [monologue] and we go to the cafe, and sit, and talk, and eat hamburgers.
[旁白]当时我们在一块 虽然她的眼睛视力不太好 我认为她能看清我 至少她能看到我的轮廓 [monologue] We were together. Even with her bad eyes, I think she could see me. Well, she could see my outline.
[旁白]那么一段时间 我妈妈又回来了 [monologue] and for a while, I had my mother again.
我们去过公园 我记得 我们以前还拿硬纸板当垫子从滑梯滑下来 and we went to park. Yeah, I remember. We used to side down that hill, remember? you put down that old card borad we pretend it was slide.
你还记得？ You remember that?
记得那个怪兽吗 How about the tickle monster.
是啊，我们当时尖叫了半天 Well, we screemed and laughed about that one.
我以前是个好妈妈 不是吗？ I was a good mom, wasn't I?
不是吗？ Wasn't I?
是 妈妈 当然 你那时很好 Yeah, mom, sure, you were fine.
我记得 我真的好高兴，我们都在一起,你和我还有丽萨 well, I'm real glad we were all together, you know. you and me and Lisa
如果爸爸能戒掉毒品的话 不是更好吗？ What if dad went off drugs too. Wouldn't it be great?
我们甚至能回到大学街的家 Maybe we could even go back to the university avenue.
你爸爸 他现在在收容所 我恐怕他没有公寓了 从来没付过房租 所以... Yeah... , your dad. He's in a shelter right now. I'm afraid that he lost the apartment. He can not even order the rend, so...
那我的东西呢？ What about my stuff?
被扔掉了 got thrown out
所有的？包括我的百科全书？ all of it, even my encyclopedias?
我真的很对不起 但是他们把整个房子都封了 我们什么也做不了 Look, pumpkin, I'm really sorry, you know, they boardered the whole place. There was nothing we could do.
你知道 糟糕的事情就这么发生的 Just, you know, crap happends, I mean.
我得到街角去见几个朋友 很快的 好吗？ 你把你的汉堡吃完 Look, you know, I gotta go around the corner and see a few friends. Just for a minute, ok? You finish your burger, and ...
我马上就回来 很快的 很快的... and I'll be right back. just be a minute. baby.
[旁白]现实就是如此 不可能回去了 我过去什么都没有留下来 只是事情更糟糕了 [monologue] so that was that. no going back. I hadn't kept anything together. I've only made things worse.
[旁白]我只能去学校了 好像是我唯一能去的了 唯一能去的 [monologue] If I would only go to school. If I would only... If I would only.
[旁白]那么我那部分的生活结束了吗？ 我想新生活已经开始了 [monologue] so, that part of my life was over. I guessed the new part had began.
伊丽莎白 玛瑞？ Elizabeth Murray？
你是她的妈妈？ and you're her mother？
我会带你去你的教室的 I'll take you to your class now.
你回家没问题吗？ Are you gonna get home ok?
是的 我只是去见我的朋友们 她们会照顾我的 Yeah, I'm gonna see my buddies, you know, they could take care of me.
可能我该跟你一块走 Maybe I should just come with you.
你知道学校有规定的 你不能跟我一块走 走吧 走吧 You gotta stay in the school. They will take you away again, just go go.
那我们这里有纳斯、波斯、克里斯？ so we have nouns, verbs. Chris?
埃吉斯 和 迪辛 adjective and preposition
[旁白]我再也不是个难闻的学生了 我学会了每天洗澡 我的衣服虽然是从二手店买的 但都还合适 但是我还是不知道该怎么待在学校 我还是不知道该怎么跟个平常人一样 [monologue] I wasn't the smelly kid any more. I've learned to shower every day at the group home. and my clothes, even if they came from the thrift shop, all fit. but I still didn't know how to be in school. I still didn't know how to be normal.
大家能不能静一下？ People, can we try to settle down?
克里斯 你想读读第十二段对话吗？ Chris, would you like to try diagram No. 12?
不 NO
博比？ Bobie
你觉得那很好笑吗？ You find it amusing, Miss.
伊丽莎白？ Elizabeth？
请不要那么叫我 Please don't call me that.
根据表格看 那是你的名字 It's your name according to these forms.
叫我丽丝 或 丽兹 Liz or Lizzy
丽丝或者丽兹是昵称 Liz or Lizzy is a nick name.
都是昵称 are nick names.
不 我想恐怕不行 No, I'm afraid not.
上帝啊 就照她说的叫不就完了？ Jesus, call the girl she wants to be called.
伊丽莎白是个好名字 是女皇的名字 是莎士比亚时代的名字 有什么问题？ Elizabeth is a fine name. the name of a queen. The Elizabeth's age was the age of Shakespeare. What's your problem with it?
我妈发狂的时候就叫我伊丽莎白 My mother calls me Elizabeth, when she's going insane.
那就丽丝吧 Liz then.
博比 句子呢？ Bobie, the sentence.
那你以前在哪里上学？ so where did you go to school before this.
我没上过学 I didn't
那你干什么呢？ How did you ***?
我以前在收容所长大 I was at the group home.
那里很奇怪吗？ Is that freaky?
是的 Yeah
但是你可不像个怪人 but you're not a freak
不对 NO
太糟糕了 我是的 It's too bad. I am.
我的生日快到了 My birthday's coming up.
是吗？什么时候？ Yeah? When?
你会知道的 我会穿上爸爸的大衣 You'll know. I'm gonna wear my dad's ***coat.
我会光着身子到学校 就只穿爸爸的大衣和靴子 I'm gonna come to school with nothing on but my *** coat and a pair boots
老远处亮给老师看 生日快乐 from far show all the teachers. Happy Birthday.
你不相信我？ You don't believe me?
没有 我相信 Yeah, I do.
不 你不信 No, you don't.
[音乐]哈 哈 哈 快看那 [music] Ha Ha Ha check it out.
别在我面前这么做了 Don't throw it out before me
我不会了 I won't.
这个地方不错 我从来没有这么舒服过 It's a great place, I never had so comfort before.
我爷爷有点古怪 顺便说一下 我们要6点前就离开 Pop's gonna cranky. We have to by safe, by the way.
丽丝 我正等个电话呢 有奖问答那种 Liz, I'm waiting for the phone, those contest things.
她绝对不会赢的 She never gonna win.
好吧 你知道吗 闭嘴 在我忘记前我最好先去拔号码 Ok, you know what. shut up. I don't care. I just gotta dial his number before I forget it.
你们这些人就不能安静点吗？ Does anybody get high *** news, come on.
博比 省省吧 考试还有一周呢 Bobie, you*** test's until like a week.
嘿 我可以吃这里的东西吗？ Hey, can I just have that chicken for lunch.
当然 sure
已经来了吗？ Is this already?
一个喝醉的女人 some drunk lady.
噢，她在门口呕吐 Oh, she'll drain on the door.
我从窗户爬出去吧 oh, I'm going out the window.
我觉得不太舒服 能帮帮我吗？ I don't feel very good. Could you help me, please?
哦 她就在这儿吐了 Oh, here she blows.
好吧 站起来 all right, up
我是个坏妈妈 我只是想来一针 哦 上帝 I'm a good mom. I just need a hug, I want a hug.
[旁白] 她承受不了生活的压力 我又怎么期望她承受死亡呢 难道死亡不是每个人最难面对的吗？ [monologue] She couldn't take living straight. Why should I expect her to take dying. Isn't dying the hardest thing anyone's ever done?
所有人都走了 everyone's gone.
除了你 except you
Yeah
那你爷爷睡哪里？ so where's your pos gonna sleep?
这儿 here
跟他女儿一块儿睡吗？ sleep with his daughter?
哦 可不是那么一回事 oh, I don't think like that.
是 但是你不知道罢了 Yeah, but you don't know.
爷爷在她小时候侵犯过她姐姐 她告诉我的 He did her sisiter, when she was real younger. She told me that.
她姐姐还是她？ Why her sister, not her?
我猜她们都是 I figure he did them both.
所以她姐姐也疯了？ So her sister crazy, too?
她们的妈妈也是 Yeah, and their mother, too.
那就是为什么我不愿意来这里 That's why that I didn't wanna come here.
你知道 我妈妈要回到我爸爸那里了 You know, my mom's getting back with my dad.
我希望我妈妈也能那样 I wish my mom would.
他对我姐姐做了些...不该做的 He does stuff to my sister.
你没有姐姐！ You don't have a sister.
对她来说是幸运的 Lucky for her.
你告诉你妈妈了吗？ Did you tell your mother?
是啊 我告诉她了 Yeah, I told her.
但她离开他时 她诅咒他并且叫了警察 现在她要回到他那儿 but she left him and she cursed him out, she just gonna call the cops and now she's getting back with him.
我问她怎么能这么做时 她告诉我她想他 You know, I asked her how she could do that? and she said she missed him.
她想他， 哼 She missed him, huh?
他第一次强暴我 我才7岁 I was 7 when he first stuck it in.
克里斯！ 克里斯！ 别... Chris, Chris don't.
住我这里 moving with me.
住这里? stay here?
那你爷爷怎么说? What's your grandfather gonna say?
他不会知道的 我是说我们不要让他发现就行了 He won't know. I will. We'll work it out so I never see you.
上班之后他总起的很晚 像个机器人 8点钟才出门 He won't get up until late from work. He's like a robot, anyway, out at 8
六点钟回来 出去 and back at six. out
爷爷，她无家可归了 Pop, she has no place to stay.
那不是我的问题 出去 It's not my problem. OUT!
别碰她 别... Leave her alone. Don't...
你妈妈快死了 你那垃圾爸爸给我丢下这烂摊子 他们体谅过我的年纪吗? Your mother's dying. Your piece of trash father walked out and stuck me with a lot of these. Did I ask my fellows of my age, did they?
你在干什么? What are you doing?
好的很 正合我意 反正你也就是个垃圾 跟你父母一样 All right, That suits me. You end up a trash anyway, just like your parents.
我也不呆在这儿了 so I left
你是去把你的东西也拿过来 还是就把我扔在这儿? You wanna go and get your stuff or you're gonna leave me out here alone
[旁白]我们还能跟生活讨价还价吗? 对我来说我们就像直接跌到了最坏的情况 我们不得不努力去改变它 [monologue] Do any of us bargain for our lives? It seems to me that we just fall into them. and we have to do the best we can. Let's go.
[旁白]我妈妈要死了 我爸爸走了 但是我却要相信前面有适合我的路 我15岁开始迈入社会 [monologue] My mother was dying. My father was gone. but I had to believe there were roads would rise up to meet me. I was 15 when I went out to the world.
[旁白]什么是家? 一个屋顶？ 一张床？ 一个能接纳你的地方？ [monologue] What's a home anyway. a roof? a bed? a place where when you go there they have to take you .
[旁白]如果那样的话 15岁我就无家可归了 [monologue] If so, when I was 15, I became homeless.
- 给点零钱吧 - 找个工作吧! spare some change? get a job
今晚过的怎么样? How ya doing tonight?
上帝保佑你 孩子 God bless you kid.
给点零钱吧 spare some change?
[旁白]但有时我觉得我从来没有在我的生活中有一个家 [monologue] but some times I felt like I never had a home in my life.
走吧 Let's go
回来! come back!
[旁白]终于 我明白了 我妈妈在哪里 我的家就在哪里 [monologue] and another times I knew where ever my mom was, that's where my home was.
[旁白]一个月又一个月 她日渐衰竭 [monologue] Month by month, she was fitting away.
丽丝 Liz
你去哪了? Where did you go?
我...我一直跟朋友住在一起 I've ... I've been staying with friends.
我想你 I miss you.
爷爷... 他讨厌我 所以我不能呆在这里 pops... he hated me and I couldn't stay here.
丽萨说你又不去上学了 Lisa said you stop going to school.
我会回去的 I'm gonna go back.
什么时候? When?
你身体好点的时候 When you get better.
这就是我 这就是我 因为颤抖... 我不停的抖 This is me... This is me. I at the bars, 'cause I shake. I can't stop shaking.
我想那是喝酒太多了 我想你应该戒了 I think that's... that's because of the drinking. you should probably stop.
好吧 好吧 OK OK
你会变好的 You're gonna get better, you know.
我爱你 妈妈 我爱你 I love you mom. mom I love you .
过去那边 get over there.
等一下 我再去找你们 我得... Hey guys wait up. I'll catch you later. I'm just gonna... bye
妈妈 mom
我们在募捐 we took up a collection.
她不过来了 她老以为别人笑她 She isn't coming here anymore, 'cause she thinks we always laugh at her.
她死了 昨天早上 She's dead honey. she died yesterday morning.
[旁白]有时候我觉得世界外有一层外壳 我们所有人都生在这层外壳之下 [monologue] Sometimes I feel like there's a skin on the world. and those of us who were born under it
[旁白]你能从外壳里看到外面 但是你却出不去 [monologue] can see throw it. We just can't get throw it.
[旁白]我妈妈被埋在第51区 一个不慈善墓区 [monologue] My mother's being buried under section 51, the charity plot.
[旁白]我妈妈在里面 陌生人把她放在里面 [monologue] My mother was in there. strangers had put her in there.
[旁白]她穿衣服了吗？ 她害怕吗？ [monologue] Was she naked? was she frightened?
[旁白]不 她离开了 [monologue] No, she was gone.
咱们走 come on. let's go.
等一下 应该有个仪式的 应该有个牧师祈祷的 no wait a minute. there should be a service. there should be a priest what's supposed to happen.
你走了之后 我们会埋了它 就这样 When you go, we're gonna bury him. that's all.
那是“她” It's a SHE!
那是我妈妈 That's my mother.
没有牧师？ There's no priest?
这里没有 你不知道吗？ not these cases. you didn't know that?
她死了 把她埋了吧 She's dead. put her into the ground
[旁白]没有牧师祷告 那又怎么样？她已经不在了 [monologue] priest no priest. what did it matter. she was gone.
[旁白]她已经开始腐烂了 [monologue] She was already rotting.
对不起 sorry
[旁白]我应该相信她找到了永恒的安宁吗？ [monologue] Was I supposed to believe she found eternal peace?
你跟我们一起走吗？ so you come with us?
先走吧 just go
嘿 等一下 Hey wait
[书写] 至爱的 基尼.马丽亚 [writing] Jean Murray, beloved.
[书写] 伊丽莎白.马丽亚 和丽萨.马丽亚的母亲 1954-1996 [writing] Mother of Elizabeth and Lisa Murray 1954-1996
好了 OK
听着 我要离开这里 好吗? Listen, I'm gonna out of here ok?
丽丝 我 我不能再... 我呆不下去了 Liz, just I can't... I can't... I can't do this anymore.
我要走了 you know, so, I'm going.
去哪里? Where?
孤儿院吧 Group home?
疯人院? crazy house?
不，这里才叫人发疯 This? This is crazy!
你该跟我一块去 You should come with me.
好吧 再说吧 yeah, so, see you around.
[旁白]人们死去 开始腐烂 所有有价值的东西都没有了意义 [monologue] People die. Things decay. Everything that seemed so solid is meaningless.
[旁白]留下的就是一些行为的碎片 碎片和空气 那就是我们记得的东西 [monologue] All that left is gestures we make. gestures and air
[旁白]我记得和我妈妈一块儿从斜坡上滑下来 [monologue] that's what we remember. I remember riding with my mother through the slips.
她的肩膀温暖的怀抱着我 当时我还很小 她还很好 [monologue] The year ending. but her arms were warm around me when I was little and she was well.
[旁白]那是很久以前 或许就只有那么一次 [monologue] That was long ago. maybe it only happened once.
[旁白]或许她背弃了我无数次 但没有关系 [monologue] Maybe she betrayed me a thousand times. it didn't matter.
[旁白]次数不表示问题 我们记得我们的选择 [monologue] math was always a weak subject. we remember what we choose.
快出来 get out of there
你们在哪里放墓碑? Where are you gonna put the stone?
没有墓碑 没有地方放 It's no stone here. There's no room.
[旁白]一个星期之内就再也找不到这个地方了 那又怎么样? [monologue] In a week, there would be no trace of her. but what did it matter?
[旁白]这又不是真实的世界 我们都活在彼此的心底 [monologue] This wasn't the real world. we really only lived in each other's hearts.
[旁白]她活在我心里 但是我却没有地方去 我在这世界上单独一个人 [monologue] She lived in my heart. but I lived no where. I was all alone in the world.
[旁白]十六岁才接受8年级的教育 [monologue] you're 16 years old with 8th grade education,
生活在你做梦都想像不到的糟糕地方 [monologue] and you run down that *** there were ended a worse place that you ever dreamed.
失去了所有的关系 消磨了所有的欢迎 每一个曾经相信我的人 我都让他们失望了 [monologue] you've burned every bridge, you've worned out every welcom and everyone who's ever believed in you. you've let down.
伊娃 Eva
我不想做个傻瓜 我要去上学 I don't wanna be an idot. I wanna go to school.
-你好 -你好 -我是丽丝.马丽亚 我约了时间 I'm Liz Murray. I have an appointment.
9:30? at 9:30?
现在 10:30 了 It's 10:30
- 很抱歉 交通堵塞... - 我也很抱歉 但是你实在是太晚了 I'm sorry, the subway got stucked. I'm sorry, too. but it's really too late.
学校3周前就开学了 招生就快满了 School started 3 weeks ago. It's just about full.
学生都准时到这里 孩子 Kids get here on time, honey.
我读过... "加强学生的参与以发展公平社区" I read the br***sure "intensive student participation for the development of a just conmunity. "
我只是需要一次机会 I just need one chance.
你可以等一下跟戴维谈谈 You can wait and talk to David.
但他待会儿还有个会 but he's got a meeting right after
[问题]你的梦想是什么?生活的梦想?学校的梦想? [question] What is your dream? For your life? For your school.
[旁白]我知道在那个时刻我要作出选择 我可以为自己的生活寻找如何借口并为之辩护 [monologue] I knew when at that moment I had to make a choice. I could submit to everything that was happening in living life of excuses
或者我可以推我自己一把 我可以推自己一把 让我的生活变好 [monologue] or I could push myself. I could push myself and make my life good.
我星期五会给你们通知 Hey, we'll get you by friday.
- 好的 谢谢 - 我的荣幸 孩子们 OK thank you. oh pleasure guys
- 伊丽莎白? - 丽丝 Elizabeth? Liz
丽丝 对不起 我们已经要做最后决定了 我快迟到了 Liz, I'm sorry. We're making our last decisions now. I'm already late.
我能跟您谈一分钟吗? 30秒? Can I just talk to you for just a minute? 30 sesonds?
这里有申请表还有一大堆问题... 我都已经完成了 我真的想要上学 It's the application. It's a whole big essay question, too. I've already done the essay. I really want this.
我没有什么东西证明我过来要很远 所以我不知道该怎么跟你说 I haven't had a lot grownups improved to be trustworthy or for the long runs, so maybe I don't know how to talk to you, but ...
我父母都吸毒 很严重 我不会跟他们沾边的 My parents both use drugs, a lot of them. I won't go near them, but...
但是我就是生活在那种环境的 but I guess I, kind of, lived that life style.
我很为我过去没做好而觉得难堪 I'm embarrassed now about how layback I've been.
我是说 我没有真正的去上过学 除了8年级 但是... I mean, I've never even really been school except for the 8th grade. but
你以前的成绩非常好 your grades are very good in elementary school
我都是最后一周去参加了考试 才得以升级的 I used to show up last week and take the test, that's how I get promoted.
我很聪明 我知道我能成功 I'm smart.
我只是 我只是需要一次机会 I know I can succeed. I just... I just need the chance.
我需要一次机会爬出我出生的那个环境 I need the chance to climb out of this place I've been born in.
每个我认识的人都是愤怒 疲惫 everyone I know just angry, tired.
他们只是挣扎着活下去 They're trying to survive.
但是我知道有一个世界 更好的世界... but I know that there's a world out there that's better.
更好的生活 我希望在那里生活 That's better developed. I wanna live in it.
为什么是现在? why now?
我妈妈死于艾滋病 她几个月前死的 My mother died of AIDS. she died a couple of months ago.
感觉好像被打了几巴掌 It was real slap on the face.
我过去总是以为她会好转的 然后照顾我 I guess I always thought that she was gonna get better and take care of me.
很蠢是吧? It's pretty stupid huh?
她从来都没有照顾过我 是我照顾她 she'd never been taking care of me. I took care of her.
她是我的孩子 但现在她不在了 She was my baby. But now she's gone.
就是这样 so ...
现在是时候你自己照顾自己了 now it's time to take care of yourself
你能按时到校吗? 丽丝? Can you get here on time? Liz?
我会睡在这里如果可以的话 I'll sleep here if I have to.
好吧 你被录取了 Ok, you're in.
但是你告诉别人要到星期五才有结果的 but you told the others you won't know until friday.
你被录取了 You're in.
谢谢 他刚刚改变了我的一生 Thank you . He just changes my life.
这就是为人师表 That's worth Miss.
把相关表单准备一下 you just fulfill the paper work.
你要带着成绩单 和一些紧急联系信息:地址 电话 You got your transcrips and that's just the easy stuff address, phone number.
我们需要你的父母或者监护人见一面 We have to have a meeting with parents or your gardian
这些都有了 你就可以来上学了 get that in. we're good to go.
爸爸 dad.
嘿 丽丝 Hey, Lizzy.
我需要你的帮助 求你了 I need your help, please.
真是太夸张了 太夸张了 such a production. such a production
为什么你不呆在以前的学校? Why don't you just stay in the Browx and go to konedy.
我不知道该怎么待在普通学校 I don't know how to go to a normal school.
为什么? 这不是普通学校吗? Why? why? this isn't a normal school?
哦 是公立的 但是看上去很像私立的 Oh it's public but it's like private.
爸爸 爸爸 dad dad
我觉得我可以办到的 I think I can do this.
很好 但我不认为我可以办到 Yeah? that's good. I don't think I can do this.
嘿 你可以 你可以的 Yeah you can! you can!
你就说你是开长途货车 所以经常看不到你 just say you're a long horn truck driver. that's why I just don't ever see you.
我们现在和你的女朋友住在一起 We're living with your girl friend now also.
等一下 你说我有个女朋友 oh you give me a girl friend?
伊娃 伊娃！ 这可不好 伊娃老的能当我妈了 Eva. Eva! oh, that's not good. Eva is old enough to be my mother.
爸爸 我只是需要一个地址... 还有一个能打的电话号码 dad. I just need an address you know, a phone number they can call.
他们不会知道我无家可归 They can't know I went homeless.
否则他们打电话给社区，我又要被送到孤儿院了 they'll call the city. and I'll be locked up again.
好吧 好吧 OK OK
- 马丽亚亚先生 - 皮特 皮特.菲尼 Mr. Murray. I'm Peter. Peter Phinidy
实际上我从来没有跟丽丝的妈妈结过婚 I never actually married Lizzy's mother.
坐下 请坐吧 sit down please.
我很高兴我女儿能来这里上学 I'm gratefully taking my daughter in this pretty nice place.
这个地方是新办的 we are still new.
不过我们也有很远的目标 we have a big ambition
我猜丽丝也是 她是个女权主义者 yeah, so is Liz I guess. She's a feminist.
我已经开始期待了 I'm expecting you know it already.
她妈妈...很漂亮 也是个女权主义者 her mother was beautiful actually. like a movie star. her mother was also a kind of a feminist too. or something.
我见到她时 她很活跃 但实际上是有些狂躁 anyway I thought when I met her she was just , you know, spirit. but actually she was completely insane.
麻烦你在这里签字 we need you to sign right here.
并且请给我们联系方式 地址 电话 and give us contect information address and phone number
大学路#3458 university avenue 3458
那是个公寓吗? is that an apartment? yeah 2b
- 3b - 3b 对 3b3b yeah that's right.
没错 我们搬到楼上了 that's right. we moved upstairs.
电话号码? phone number?
718... 718...
...555 ...555 ...555 ...555
...557...67...5555767 ...557...67...5555767
对不起 我都记的不太清了 sorry my memery my mind totally short.
就这些吗? 我应该做的事儿 就这些 so that's it? I gotta stuff to do.
感谢您的到来 谢谢您 thanks for coming. thank you
我现在能开始了吗? can I start now?
听到有人说想来上学真是让人振奋 It's refreshing to have someone who wants to come to school.
我送他出去 I'm gonna walk him out.
他们还给你零钱吗? all right. Oh, they give tokens to you?
不 我有工作 No I gotta a job
我记得你小时候在街上扫地 把食物放到冰箱里 Yeah, I remember when you were a kid you used to beg grossories down the *** road and put the food in fridge.
- 你那时候多大? - 8岁 How old were you? 8
我不算个正常人 如果你明白的话 I'm not a people person. you understand that.
我不算个正常人 丽丝 那跟你没什么关系 你知道 这不是针对个人的 I'm not a people person. Liz There's nothing to do with you. you know. It's not personal.
但是你今天还是过来了 you came today though.
我爱你 爸爸 I love you dad.
不要那样 别爱我 那是浪费精力 oh don't do that. don't love me. It wastes of energy.
我小的时候 你是我世界里最有趣的事情 You when I was little. you were the most interesting thing in my world.
其他人都是谈论毒品 性 试着撑过每一天 everyone around was just talking about drugs or sex or you know, just trying to survive the day.
但是你老是有自己的主意 but you always had ideas
因为你的缘故 我总会发现另外的出路 it's because of you I know there's another way of being.
你还好吗? Are you ok?
是 我很好 收容所的人他们很照顾我 Yeah yeah, I'm fine. they take care of me find at the shelter
事实上我很快就有自己的公寓了 actually I'm gonna get my own apartment
他们愿意会这么做 你随时可以到我那里去 you know they like to do that. you can come and stay with me, visit me, any time
你有个公寓? you own an apartment
是的 他们乐意这么做 把我这样的人隔离在收容所 yeah they like to do that. they keep people like me at the shelters.
你知道我们这些病人 得艾滋的病人 you know the people the patience. people with AIDS
嘿 许多事情变了 我吃了很多药 现在我已经没事了 Hey, listen, no no no a lot is changing. I've got all these medicines now and I'm clean
所以我想我会活下去的 so I'm gonna live forever.
我很好 我会一直活下去的 I'll be fine. I'm gonna live forever.
好好上学 stay in school.
我做不到 但是你可以做到 I blew this, but you can do this.
“东京湾” 记住大部分 还有其他吗? “普法战争” 你 Goff Tanken. remember the main. anyboday? Frank O' prushen woorf? Yo
你有"俾斯麦"那页吗? Do you get BISMARCK?
你没有那页 我也没有拿到那页 我还以为"俾斯麦"是某种肉卷呢? You didn't get BISMARCK. I didn't get BISMARCK, either. I thought BISMARCK was a kind of roll.
肉卷？ 那么"俾斯麦"是肉卷? Kaiser roll. so is BISMARCK a kaiser?
别再说食物了 我都觉得饿了 stop talking about food. you're making me hungry.
戴维 今年我们会发教科书吗? 因为我老是弄丢这些活页 Dav, are we getting textbooks next year? 'cause I'm keeping losing these things.
嗯... 教科书 为什么不发教科书? 有人知道吗? emmm... textbooks.. why don't we use textbooks? anyone?
太重了? too heavy?
的确这样，但是不能给雪茄糖 They are, but not cigar (a kind of sugar)
它们太贵了 学校负担不了 they're too expensive. the school is too poor.
看来今天我要自己留着雪茄糖了 I'm keeping my cigars today.
你，新来的 you new girl.
她叫丽丝 her name is Liz
天啊， 戴维 她都来一周了 你还记不住她的名字 Yeah dav. she's been here a week. try to remember.
丽丝 告我吧 Liz, sue me
教科书 教科...书 textbook text...book...
打开它 open it up
- 你看到了什么? - 字 what did you see? words
什么样的字? what kind of words?
作者的话 the words of the author.
不 不 这很重要 我手上拿的是什么? NO NO this is important. and what we have here?
许多其他人的话 a lot of other people's words
为什么我要发给你们? why do I wannt you to have them
因为一种观点给你一方面的见解 because one point of view gives you a one-dimensional world
雪茄糖 雪茄糖 "俾斯麦" 卖给我雪茄糖的家伙 cigars cigars! BISMARCK. marks the guy who sold me the babble gums cigars.
为什么要把我们局限于这段历史故事呢? why one earth would we confine ourselves to his story——history
那有什么办法？我的意思是那不是记载着官方历史吗? but isn't that the deal day? I mean is there official history?
不，孩子，告诉他什么是历史? NO girl tell him what history is.
历史是...我们全体，我们所有的经历都是历史 history is all of us. all our stories count.
就这样 拿着你的作业 要找我的话 我在休息室 that's is. grab your papers. I'll be in the launch if you wanna talk about it.
嘿 丽丝 这是你的 hey Liz it's yours
嘿 新来的 hey new girl
你批准我入校的 却不记得我的名字 you let me in but you don't remember my name
我记得你的名字 我只是想让其他人站到你一边 Oh I remember your name. I just like the others gaining up your side.
你很聪明 you're pretty smart.
你也是 so are you
你给我一个 A- you gave me an A-
是的 我认为写的不错 yeah I thought it was a very good paper
我怎么才能得 A ? how do i make an A
丽丝 A- 是非常高的分数 再怎么说这是你第一次的作业 Liz, an A- is an excellent mark. this is your first school work and what? forever?
如果我的话有用的话 我希望你能帮我改正它 if my words count, I want them to be right.
好吧 OK
很显然 写的很好 但是... well, *** is a good one, but ...
你还在这里干什么? what're you still doing here?
代数 algebra
已经11点了 我要关门了 yeah well, it's after 11. I'm locking up.
你上多少门课? How many classes are you taking?
必修5门 周六培训 夜校 法语 公共课程 科学 10个 the regular 5, and the saturday programming, the night school, franch and the after school science ten!
现在你知道为什么我需要学数学了 now you see why I need the before school maths
太多了 a lot
我现在17了 我不想高中毕业就21了 I'm 17. I don't wanna be 21 before I finish high school.
那你想3年念完4年的课程吗? so you're trying to do 4-years high school in 3 years?
2年
看来你也需要学学数学了 you need before school maths, too.
哦 是啊 你这是在自杀 yeah, you'll kill yourself you know?
不是 NO
我会活的好好的 NO I'm gonna live.
[旁白]我坚持下来了 这 B号线整个行程是70分钟 [monologue] I had it down. the B-train took 70 minutes to do its entire run
[旁白]我已经来回4次了，我知道我会早到学校 她们会让我进去的 [monologue] I've been back 4 times, and I would get to school just a little early. and david would let me in.
[旁白]第一次我生活里有了些可以遵循的节奏 [monologue] for the first time my life had some order I can count on
克里斯？ Chris？
克里斯？ 克里斯！ Chris？Chris？
你在这儿干嘛呢？ what're you doing here?
闲逛 hanging out
你的家怎么样？ what about the home?
那你怎么能不来找我呢？ so why don't you look for me?
我找过 我找了你很久了 I did. I've been looking for a long time.
你都不在以前的地方了 you have been in any ever places?
我现在在这边 我上了一个新学校 我很喜欢它 I'm here now. I'm going to a new school. and I like it.
多好啊 我们又在一块儿了 hey hey come on. it's great. we're together.
最后一个走 第一个来 last one out, first one in.
不 那是说你的 戴维 no that describes you david.
你怎么能那么敬业呢？ how did you get so dedicated？
我得到了很多恩惠，所以我得回报 well, I'm such a privilege jerk. I want it to give something back.
这是? this is?
我朋友 克里斯 最好的朋友 my friend chris. my best friend.
- 你好 克里斯 - 你好 hi chris. hey
我想让她也来这里上学 I want her to come here too.
这不是个舞会 是个很吃苦的地方 It's not a party, it's a tough place.
但你认为她行 我相信她能行 进来吧 but she's good enough for you, she's good enough for me. come on in.
刚刚在公告板写的是什么? what we putting on the board?
我们决定要送学校前10名到波士顿参观 we're deciding we'll send top 10 students in school trip to Boston
- 酷 - 你去过吗? cool. you've ever been?
我从来都没出过纽约 I've never been out of New York.
我们去过皇后区 we went to queen's once.
你会去的 well, you're going.
得了吧，我根本进不了前10名 come on. no way I'm one of the top 10 students.
你可不是前10名之一 你是第1名 oh you're not one of the top. you're the top.
你是学校里成绩最好的 you get the best grade in this whole place
那又怎么样? 去波士顿? so what? you going to Boston?
旅费是学校付的 expenses paid.
- 多久? - 5天 how long? 5 days
你还好吗? 丽丝? you ok, Liz?
我还以为我是渣滓呢 yeah, I just thought I've been trash, you know.
你不是渣滓 从这件事上你应该考虑上大学 you're not trash. this is getting you thinking about college.
- 什么样的大学? - 都是废话 别说了 what's college like? It's all crap, shup up!
你也可以去啊 她可以吗? you can come too? can she?
- 当然可以 她能做到 - 别指望我了，多谢了 sure, if she does the work. well, not figure an inch, thanks.
克里斯 多一点理想 长大了你想做什么? come on chris, dream a little. what you wanna be when you grow up?
我7岁的时候就已经长大了 boy, I was grown since I was 7.
我的意思是说 高中之后? 没事的 I mean after high school. it's ok.
我有事 我会做个捡垃圾的 我会做个妓女 no it's not ok. I'll be a garbageman. I'll be a prostitude.
谁会在意我变成什么样的垃圾呢? who cares what the hell I'm gonna be.
欢迎到哈佛 同学们 welcome to Harvard guys.
看上去和想象的一样吗? it looks like what you thought it would?
更好 难以想象的好 better. unattainably better
丽丝 他们也只是普通人 Liz, they're just people.
不是像我这样的普通人 not people like me
[旁白]为什么不是像我这样的普通人? 是什么让他们这么不同? [monologue] why not people like me ? what made them so different?
[旁白]因为他们出生的地方吗? [monologue] because of where they were born?
[旁白]我尽我所能的工作 所以不用靠救济粮票或者房屋租借度日 [monologue] I was working as hard as I could, so I didn't end up on food stamps or house let.
[旁白]如果我更努力地工作呢? [monologue] what... what if I work even more?
[旁白]我现在离那层外壳这么近 甚至可以触摸到它 [monologue] I was so close to the skin now I can touch it.
这是一种渴望 不是不可能 it would be a reach. it's not impossible.
还有其他奖学金吗? is there any other scholarships
有很多 that's quite a few.
关于自由市场和自由世界的重要性 写一篇1500字的报告 可以得500美元奖学金 write 1500 words on the important of the free market and the free world and win $500
可是每年我用不到70美元 yeah, I don't need lead 70 of those every year.
有个最新的奖学金项目 纽约时报的 我可能还没放进去呢 there was some brandnew from the NYT, maybe I didn't put it in yet.
12000美元每年 共4年 $12000 every year for 4 years
要求有什么? what do you have to do?
附一个简短论文描述你认为 最重要的收获和你是如何迎接挑战和克服困难的 attach a brief essay describing what you believe to be the most significant in acadamic achievement and how you have overcome any chellenges or obstacles
能帮我复印一份吗? can have a copy of this?
[旁白]我想和他们平起平坐而不是在他们之下 [monologue] I want to stand beside people beside walk and not be so far beneath them
[旁白]我想去哈佛 做受高教育的人 读所有最好的书 [monologue] I wanna go to Harvard and become very developed read all the best books
[旁白]有时候我也发现我在想我是不是一时冲动? [monologue] then I found myself thinking
[旁白]用我所有的潜能去做这件事 [monologue] what if I just go crazy? I used my every potential to do that.
[旁白]我必须这么做 我没有选择 [monologue] I have to do it. I have no choice.
我迟到了吗? Am I late?
不 是我早了 No, I'm early
我帮你倒杯咖啡 I make you some coffee.
- 周末可好? - 挺好的 once ***, right? right!
能给我张邮票吗? can I have a stamp for this?
申请纽约时报奖学金?你还没寄出去吗? 什么时候截止? that's the NYT scholarship. you haven't mailed them yet? when is the deadline?
- 明天 - 我四个月之前就给你了 你等什么呢? tomorrow. I gave you 4 months ago, Liz. what are you waiting for?
为了今天 我18岁 for today. for me to turn 18.
今天你生日? It's your birthday.
生日快乐 happy birthday.
但是我想他们不需要这个要求 but I don't think there's a requirement
我知道 谢谢你 I know, thank you.
[旁白]但是现在我可以说实话了 我无家可归 [monologue] but now I could tell the truth that I was homeless.
没有人会来带我回家 and no one could come and take me away
丽萨 Lisa
丽丝? Liz?
你在这里干嘛? What are you doing here?
我有个面试 我进了纽约时报奖学金最后一轮 I have this interview. I'm a finalist for a big NYT scholarship
但是我没有能穿的衣服 but I don't have anything to wear.
你想要我的衣服吗? You want my clothes?
不需要精美，只要合适就行了 nothing fancy just something that I can put over this.
过去妈妈把我的那件卖了 我也不能去上学 mom sold my coat once, I couldn't go to school
我记得 I remember
我还哭了 我真的很喜欢上学 I cried, I loved going to school so much.
你都没上过学 他们怎么会给你奖学金呢? you never went to school. why would they give you the scholarship
因为我无家可归而且我在学校的成绩很好 because I'm homeless and I'm doing really well in school, and...
你不是无家可归!丽丝 你可以住在这里 you're not homeless, Liz. you could stay here.
不 我不能 你知道的 No I couldn't. you know that
爷爷恨你 pop hates you.
我真是瞎了眼 就像妈妈一样 I'm going blind. like mama
我很害怕 I'm scared.
丽丝 他们把我赶出了孤儿院 还有所有的东西 Liz, they kick me out of the group home and all my stuff.
他们不能赶你走 你还不到18呢 they can't kick you out, you're not 18 yet.
他们要把我转到布鲁克林 我不想去 你一定要帮帮我 They'll bring to to Brucklin. I don't wanna go to Brucklin. you have to help me
我有个面试 好嘛? I have an interview. right?
让我把这件事做完 你就可以回来上学 just let get through this one thing, and you can come back and go to school
我不想上学 我不属于那里 你也不属于那里 no, I don't wanna go to school, I don't belong there, neither do you.
不 我是的 yes I do.
你以为他们会让像你我这样的人进哈佛? you think they like pepole like us to go to Harvard?
[旁白] 世界在转动，你只是一粒尘埃 [monologue] the world moves you just suspect
[旁白] 没有你，世界照样在转 [monologue] it could no happen without you
[旁白]现实不会像你希望的一样 [monologue] situations are not condused to what you want for yourself
[旁白]有些人的需求 有些人的信念 会比你的更强烈 [monologue] someone else's needs, someone else's plate is going to be stronger than yours is.
[旁白]我想严酷的生活会让人们不知所措 [monologue] I think people just get frustrated without harsh, life can be
[旁白]所以人们久久围困于自己的失败中 [monologue] so they're spending their time dwelling on that frustration
[旁白]我们称为愤怒 而对事物的整体视而不见 [monologue] we calling it anger. keep their eyes shut to the wholeness of the situation
[旁白]对于所有能够成功的微小元素以及什么是成功视而不见 [monologue] to all those tinny things that have come together to make it, what it is
因为我的父母迫使我向深处里观察 because I was turned so inward by mom and dad
我有幸看到所有的微小因素是如何聚集在一起 形成最终的局面 I got chance to see how all the little tiny things come together to make the final product
所以我从不倾向于去问为什么这样 为什么那样 so I was never inclined to wonder why this or why that
我知道为什么 I knew why
对此我并不高兴，事实上很多时候让我很难过 not that I was happy about it, in fact I was really sad about it, some of the time
但是我很乐观 but I was very excepting
我总是勇于接受事实 我知道我总得离开那里 I was very excepting. I just always knew that I need to get out.
还有什么你要告诉我们的吗? is there anything else you'd like to tell us?
我爱我的妈妈 I loved my mother.
非常的爱 so much I mean
她吸毒 she was a drug addict.
也酗酒 she was an alcoholic
且基本失明 she was legally blind
她还患有精神分裂 she was schizophrenic
但是我决不会忘记她爱我 but I never forgot that she did love me
即使她已经死了 even if, if she did it
一直如此 all the time
一直...一直如此 all the time
我希望你们知道 我是多么的需要这次机会 I hope you will know how much I really need this
没有它我就不能上大学或者别的事情 I can't go to college or anything without it
她的平均成绩95分，是学校150名学生中最高的 she earned a 95 average, and finished the top of class of 150
她在两年时间完成了4年的高中学业 she did it while completing the 4-years of high school in 2
期间她无家可归 她妈妈死了 爸爸在收容所里 she did it while homeless, her mother was dead, her father was a drug addict living in shelters
我所有的描述都不能概括对她的赞扬 and any way I describe this can't do just to her accomplishment
所以我将直接请出我们第6届纽约时报奖学金获奖者 so I'll just introduce to you our 6th NYT scholarship winner
丽丝.马丽亚 Liz Murray
所有的事情都改变了 我的人生不会再如以前了 everything's changed, My life will never be the same.
我不知道还应该说些什么 除了谢谢 and I don't know what else to say except for thank you
非常感谢 thank you very much
丽丝 丽丝 你是怎么做到的? Liz Liz, how did you do this?
我怎么做不到呢? How could I not do it?!
我的父母教会了我可能 my parents showed me with the alternative was
你为自己的过去感到难过吗? did you ever feel sorry for yourself?
对不起? sorry?
在地铁里睡觉 吃丢弃的食物 sleeping in the subway. eating out of dumpsters
那总是我生活的一部分 我觉的... that had always been my life and I really
我非常幸运是因为我心里所有的安全感被从身体中抛弃 I feel that I got lucky, because any sensive security was pulled out from under me
所以我被迫向前看 我必须向前... 没有能后退的路 so I was forced to look forward. I had to... there was no going back
当我意识到这点，我想... and I reached a point where I just thought
"好吧 我要尽我所能的工作 看会发生什么?" "oh I'm gonna work as hard as I possiblly can and see what happens"
现在我要上大学了 而且纽约时报给我付学费 and now I'm going to college. and the NYT is going to pay
所以说你是幸运的 但如果可以的话 你会去改变什么 so you were lucky! but is there anything you change, if you were able?
我会把它还回去的 所有的 如果我的家庭能复原的话 Yeah, I'd give it back. all of it. If I could have my family back.
[旁白]我进了哈佛 我在纽约时报有了份工作 我有了自己的公寓 [monologue] I got into Harvard. I got a job at the NYT. I got an apartment.
[旁白]我再也不用过颠沛流离的生活 [monologue] I don't have to carry my whole life with me any more.
我不得不背负着我的过去 [monologue] I don't have to carry my whole life with me
但是我记得所有我认识的人 所有我做过的事情 和难过的往事 [monologue] but I do. everyone I've known, everything I have done. Jesus, chip off
我忘记了那些琐碎的事情 但仍很难独自承受 I forget the little things but still hard to carry alone
所以我才会告诉你 告诉你我的故事 so that's why I told you. that's why I've told you my story
现在我能让它燃烧 平息 然后继续向前走了 now I can lay it out and burn it done, put it in the rest, then I can go on
嗨 妈妈 Hi mom.
[丽丝的艾滋病父亲生活在他自己的公寓里]
[丽丝的朋友克里斯有了稳定的工作且和丽丝一直是好朋友]
[丽丝用在演讲攒来的钱支付公寓的月住]
[丽丝2003年从哈佛大学转到哥伦比亚大学学习电影专业]
谢谢！ Thank you!